Sunday 21 July 2019

Processing Grief

Tina was known by all her friends as the positive one who always smiled and was upbeat, but of late Tina did not feel like that at all.  All Tina ever wanted was love and to be accepted but unfortunately, as a child was never really shown a true healthy example of how a functional balanced happy relationship works, which meant that she attracted that later on in her adult years and was now in a situation where she found herself three years into a relationship that was very toxic and unhealthy.

A year ago she moved back in after a six-month separation and knew full well this was a recipe for disaster but went ahead regardless, well due to several circumstances found herself in a situation where first of all Bob begged her to come back. If Tina looks back what has really changed?  Bob's routine was going to the local pub after work and used to text Tina saying......PUB, so basically if Tina wanted to spend time with Bob she would have to go to the pub and spend time with him even though she didn't really enjoy it.

Bob is not a healthy eater, where Tina is and enjoys healthy good fresh food.  Bob is quite happy to munch on takeaways most days and then have a kebab around 9.30pm after he had his 4 pints.  This was Bobs regular routine 5 or 6 out of 7 nights a week.  If Tina made dinner, she would eat on her own and leave his food in the microwave.  

Tina lives in Bob's house and Bob does not care at all about maintenance, housework, cleaning or washing so Tina started to feel like the maid and that she was being taken for granted.  

Once Tina stopped killing herself to keep the house tidy, clean and up to date, it made her feel like she was giving up as she did not feel appreciated.  When Tina did any shopping Bob never acknowledged it or said thank you or showed any appreciation.

When Tina would try and call Bob on his mobile his excuse was "my battery died" and he would call on the way to see how much trouble he was in and if Tina was not nice then the verbal abuse would start and he would say things to make her feel guilty.

The main issue is that there was no communication between them at all, whenever Tina did try and communicate she got shot down and told: "don't bring up the past" which happened to be a conversation or comment from the previous day.


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